cRaWy's ThOuGhTs ...

sick ... n other thoughts

felt feverish last nite, coupled with a pounding headache that drove me to return early from my workplace at 5pm. i dunno if its the food intake i was eating or maybe the lack of sleep over the last 2 nights. somehow, my body isn't the same as in the past when i could get on with 6hrs or less of sleep. i was knocked out by 10pm last nite (with the influence of x2 normal panadol) and didnt get up until 7am this morning.

was a tad emotional for the past couple of nites. i dunno if its the uncertainty of the future of work in my company or maybe i'm feeling neurotic. maybe its both. stress from all difference sectors. it made me think and ponder about lots of stuff and wonder if i'm doing the right thing all along. i hate being kept in the dark about stuff, esp those that i'm pretty passionate about. sometimes a wrong decision gets you so down that you wonder very often what is the correct to resolve the issue. i guess as a trained engineer, it is built into me to think, ponder and analyse about problems and find ways to get those problems resolved. but when the problem is out of my hands or there is no way to get it solved, i think i get very frustrated easily.

got into a wierd arguement the other night. thinking about it, i wondered why i brought up all those points which were shot down so convincingly by the other party. i dunno if i'm losing my touch or just that i was feeling frustrated and not thinking fast enough. maybe its the tiredness of it all. waiting is a game that is hard to do. when one's patience is worn thin, frustration just boils over and i think i did lose control over that matter. however, i think a clear mind is required if one really wants to be able to work out all the points in an arguement and counter-argue. but then again, one has to be sensitive and understanding about the points being brought up and not to get too emotional until it becomes ugly. an ugly arguement leads to a fight, which is not a very good way to resolve issues.

posted by Crawy @ 10:47 am